Zachary Scott

Three weeks ago I got a call from a church friend asking me if could open my home to her three year old grandson who needed a home. After discussing it with my family, we agreed to take him. A boy! How exciting! I even know most of his family members so we were really excited. Friday morning I woke up expecting to have a little man by the end of the day. Three weeks of torture...DYFS torture...One person says one thing, one says another. One supervisor says yes..one says no. Most are rude and it has really been disheartening. I cried out to God for some answers, but He said, "Be Still!" I tried to give it to Him, but then I would call, and call, and call. No help! No answer! I was ready to pull my hair out. I just wanted answers..if its no, then OK. Just God's will, but I needed to know that will and fast. But God had other plans for me. I needed to Let Go and Be Still.

So yesterday I told Him that I'm giving up. If it is meant to be then so be it. No more calling DYFS 10 times a day.....It was hard for me. I did call, but only one time (which made me sad that I gave in). Today I surrendered again. Well I got a call from one worker with negative news and I was sad....but then 15 minutes later, I got a call from another worker who said something opposite and that she wanted me to meet him. Ok...what time? and where??

My picture of the little man was a dark brown, dark eyed olive complexion because grandmom said he looks like Hannah. Zack is a fair boy with green eyes, light brown/reddish hair. He was all boy. Wanted to play cars, trucks, army men.....he had no interest in the princess castle or barbies. I left the visit feeling a little sick to my stomach. I'm not a boy's mom....all I know is girlie things! There was also something strange that I just couldn't put my finger on...finally I realized that little Zack was a spitting image of my brother who passed away. Crazy right?

I also left the visit with something I never had before the call...peace. Peace like a dove. I felt free. I cried out to God and told Him that I trust Him. He knows whats best for our family and Zachary. If its with us, great. If not, great. I am so thankful for His peace in this situation...Peace is flowing like a river. Thank you for all your prayers. Please continue to pray for God's will and my peace and acceptance of His decision. Ill keep you posted if I hear any news.....